Beer

Last night was terribly romantic. I prefer the term romantic though I was not with girl friend. I don’t have the one. I spend the evening till midnight with Shashi and Uttam Dai. We drank different beers and more than 3 bottles.

I was awakened up by Shashi in the morning for breakfast. Roshan accompanied him to the room as he was sleeping in the next room in C block probably with Apil one of the most help full guys from the college.

I tried studying the whole day. I ate large meal in the afternoon so I slept approximately 3 hours in the afternoon. It always happens to me whenever I eat large meal, I feel like sleeping. For many people the afternoon nap is refreshing nap but I always wake up drowsy I don’t know what is it and why this happens to me?

I have been avoiding talking much with people these days. It’s almost a week or two that I am avoiding conversation whether they are important or not. I used to be the most talkative person in the scenario. Sometimes I am terrified with the mood of myself. I used to find myself as a moody psycho with constant chirps. But nowadays it’s different. I am different. May be the best way to calm oneself and knowing oneself is to keep silent.

It’s almost 2 months I tried to study for Step 2 of USMLE. I am used to with my procrastination for this and for that. It’s in my gene. I laugh with this thought because I tried hard to overcome the feeling of the guilt every time. But now the time for my exam is very near. Just 9 days is left and I am nowhere. I don’t have fixed routines, preparation and others. I just have a confidence and the logics.

I believe in my past knowledge and deduction and logics and confidence. I will pass the exam, further more I will get 99 and above 250. I smile most of the time for these thoughts. I ask myself if this would be the vanity. And I answer this is a confidence. Cheers for the new and still newer beginning.